In the last 20 minutes, I found out two people I know just got engaged. Yay. Add to this list the woman from my Multicultural Ed class who just got married last month, the guy from my Social Policy class that is getting married this week, and the irresponsible hyperactive kid that used to do his homework in my parents living room in middle school (who, to be fair, grew up to be a very respectful guy, and who has spent the last two years in Afghanistan and Iraq serving with the Marines).
Apparently, for some, love is in the air.
I know what you're going to say, that you can hear the whine in my voice and that I should get over myself. You're right. But it just kind of feels like when you go window shopping, and you're staring at all the wonderful clothes wishing you could buy them and then you have to watch others around you step up to the cash register with their credit card in one hand and the dress you were dying to have in the other, and you get that sort of deflated feeling.
Look, I have plenty of friends who are still single. And as far as I know, they're happy to be single. That's great for them. But what I want now more than anything is to get married to my boyfriend, and it sucks that I can't because he's living in freaking Africa for another nine months. I'm tired of doing long distance, I'm tired of having a relationship over the phone, I'm tired of flying halfway around the world to go spend time with my boyfriend. We've been doing long distance off and on for the last 6 years, and I'm over it. I just want to be with him.
I know I'm lucky to be in a relationship with a person I love so much. I know that. I just hope that all the newly engaged/married people out there also realize how lucky they are. I will freely admit: I'm totally envious.
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