I have officially joined the circus

I have never had very good hand-eye coordination.  I can't throw an accurate dart, I can't catch a baseball, and I really can't even begin to try to put a basketball through the hoop.  And yet lately, I have found myself having to spend a lot of time juggling.  Specifically, I'm juggling a full course load and student teaching schedule, a wedding to plan, and my third ball (heh heh) that I have most recently thrown into the mix is finding a job.

I hate the job search.  I hate having to find new and un-cheesy ways to "sell" myself to prospective employers like a cheap hooker working her bit of the street.  (Although, I am from Baltimore, home of the corner hoes, so maybe it's just in my blood.)  Today, I went to a convention set up so that educators can interview for jobs within the private school network.  From 8am to 3pm I hopped from table to table, and it got to the point that I had my spiel down pat.  I felt like a baseball player rattling off my stats.  (You like the sports metaphor?  I think I even used it correctly!)  And the worst part of it is that I am so desperate for a job, any job, that it got to the point where I lied about my educational beliefs and made up a bunch of stuff that is completely against everything I believe in about teaching young children.  All so that an uptight woman would deem me worthy enough to apply for the teaching position at her school.

I feel cheap.